The Struggle Is Real

Ephesians 6:11-13

11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

 

It has been quite some time since I last posted. I’m not falling by the wayside. My struggle is against powers of this dark world and the spiritual forces of evil. Satan and his minions are doing everything in their power to keep me from sharing God’s word. I have a traumatic brain injury. This happened a few years ago, I think. It affects my memory, although not as much now. My problem is, I can’t remember how to navigate this website to write new blogs. When you see my absence, that’s when I need your prayers. I have been praying for hours that God will show me where I can write and publish, and to be honest, I’m not sure I can find it again on my own.

One day, several years ago, I was home alone. I walked into my bathroom to enter my bedroom, but as soon as I set one foot in the bathroom, my adrenaline started pumping and I braced for something bad to happen. I had my tablet and phone in my hands and when I regained consciousness on the bathroom floor, those items were stacked neatly on the bathroom counter, which was an indication to me that I didn’t trip and fall.

I felt my forehead and found a goose egg forming at my brow. My glasses had been knocked off and I hurt everywhere. I was confused and didn’t know what happened. I tried to get on my knees to get myself up but the pain was so great that I couldn’t do it. I found my phone and tried to text my husband to come home from work. I couldn’t form the words and didn’t know why. Some time later, I managed to get a message to him but he was on the road and would take some time getting home.

I knew I had to get into bed so I belly crawled my way into the bedroom, the entire way repeating Phillipians 4:13 ~ ‘I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.’ Over and over until I pulled myself up on the bed with my arms. I climbed in where I knew I was safe and waited for my husband.

My insurance company had illegally cancelled my policy and, being in the healthcare profession, I knew all the expenses that would come with a 911 call. My sweet husband stayed by my side all night and watched me.

I had dark, dark bruises the length of my leg, on my abdomen, and the biggest black eye you’ve ever seen to go along with my massive goose egg. My injuries were not consistent with a fall and there was nothing at all to hit my head on. I was battered, beaten. I knew deep down that demons came to attack me. They’ve attacked me before and I’ve seen them in my house before.

My memory was gone. I couldn’t remember things from 5 minutes ago. I probably put 10 layers of deodorant on every morning because I couldn’t remember if I had put it on or not. I couldn’t remember if I had just eaten a meal. While I was sitting in the chair at the hair salon, I asked my friend if she was going to cut my hair even though she had just finished cutting it.

At this time, I had just started back to school online. I wasn’t about to drop out. I had several computer screens open at the same time and took pictures of screens that I needed to remember. It took me 3 times as long to do the work. It was so difficult, but I prayed and, by God’s grace, I continued to get A’s.

I started this website so I could spread the gospel. I am more determined than ever to overcome the obstacles that satan throws in my way. I have God on my side and I live for him. The devil still tries to block me using my memory loss, and sometimes it takes me a while, but I talk to God and he always leads the way.

So, dear friends, stand firm in Jesus. Bad times and trouble will come but God is with us ~ who can be against! Satan will try hard to stop you but greater is he that is in you than he that is in the world!

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