Be still…

“Be still, and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10

This is my favorite verse. It’s short, easy to remember, and so, so important to do. In our busy, complex, earthly lives, it’s hard to be still. One thing my husband would say to me when I would get worked up over something was, “Be still.” Being a New Yorker, my first instinct was to say, “Don’t tell me what to do!” But his calm and quiet voice stilled me and soothed me. I listened and obeyed.

Much the same it is with God. We mere mortals get so worked up over so many things. Sometimes they’re important things, sometimes they’re not. Sometimes we need to get worked up and take a stand, sometimes we need to sit down and let it go.

There was one Christmas time, quite a few years ago, when I worked at the cancer center, that I heard God’s voice say to me, “I want you to go upstairs and anoint the little girl who is dying.” This “little girl” was 21 years of age, had cancer, and had kept it from her family for a long time. When her mother finally found out, it was too late and her beautiful daughter was dying. The mother was so angry, not at her daughter, but at cancer, at the circumstances, and the fact that her beautiful child would not go on to finish her life. I knew the Lord’s voice and told Him, of course, I would but that I had forgotten my anointing oil at home that day. As this was also the season of Hanukkah, God said, “I will provide.” As I usually do, I argued with God (not a good idea ~ you won’t win) and He said, “I provided oil for 8 nights, I can provide oil for you!”

I knew God could provide oil but I didn’t listen. I called the chapel, I called the kitchen, I called the front desk. There was no anointing oil to be found. I quickly ran out to the store and bought some anointing oil, telling God, “I’ll be right back! I promise!” I went back to the patient’s room where the door was mostly closed and the room was dark. I could see her mother sitting in the corner of the room and I thought that, surely, she would not appreciate a disruption. I had to obey God. So I slowly opened the door and walked towards the little girl’s bed. She looked so beautiful. I asked her if she knew who I was and she answered me, “Yes, ma’am.” I asked her if I could anoint her and again she said, “Yes, ma’am.” Her mother, then, rose out of her seat and started walking toward me. I wasn’t sure what was going to happen. She looked at me and quietly said, “Do you have oil? I have some if you need it.”

Oh, boy! Did I feel like a fool! God told me and I heard him but I didn’t listen. I couldn’t be still and KNOW that he was God. He tested my faith and I failed miserably!

Friends, we need to take time to be still and hear what God is saying. He may be saying, “I love you, my child.” or He may have a job for us to do. But we need to listen to Him, too. We need to listen and obey. We need to trust no matter how impossible it seems. He is GOD.

2 thoughts on “Be still…”

  1. When i was only 23 and a mother of 2 boys, one only 3 months old, I heard God say it’s time to have a third. Being married at 18 and having my first at 19 you can imagine we weren’t as established as we would have liked so I too argued with God, and you’re right, there is no point. I told my husband and I told my mother and they thought I was a little crazy but they were supportive. 4 months later I was pregnant again with my third baby boy. I never knew if my husband and mother really believed me but I didn’t care because I knew what I heard. Having 3 boys in 5 years was going to be a handful and as time went on I started to wonder if I was doing the right thing. But then on May 24th, 2010 my precious baby boy was born 7 lbs, 7 oz at 7:00. 777, the number said to be Gods number. When the nurse pronounced his weight and time my husband my mother and I all had a reassured look on our faces and I believe we were all thinking the same thing, that this baby was in fact meant to be there right at that specific moment in time. Was it hard raising three young boys? You bet! But it has been worth every minute and I have no doubt in my mind that God has big plans for that baby as well as my other 4 precious children. I can’t imagine life without any one of them.

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